A Walk With God

Oh God, what have I done?
I'm afraid to grow up,
But I'm too old to be called young.
I'm impressionable, and depressed.
Tell me there's a better life than this.
I came out of a plastic mold.
And in this body I will become old.
But I hope I don't.

God, Take these hands and move them.
I can't feel them like they're my own.
My face is cold, I think I'm sick and alone.
In fact, I know.
I call to the clouds or whisper to my ceiling.
I need someone to tell me this is a momentary feeling.
I can't survive
But if You're here,
I can try.
Take my hand,
Say I'm fine.
Show me something better
On nights like tonight.
Don't show me the open sky.

Don't show me what I want to see
Show me the man you want me to be
Show me my chains so I can be free
I've grown roots in the ground,
And I'm afraid I've found
What no one wants to see.

I can't pretend to accept
This is the end I've met
But this is no beginning.
Take me to the ends of the Earth
Take me to what I've been missing
As it all comes down
The curtains close,
The actors bow
I remove my mask,
I turn and ask.

Why build a place so far away?
And build men with feet to stay.
Can we not grow wings and take to flight?
Towards anything, anything tonight.

Love

Quick, think about what love means to you. When you read or hear the word love, what does it make you think of first? I'm sure everyone has a different answer, and most answers are probably right. Love to me has always been a feeling that the one person you love is a person unlike anyone else. That the one person you love is the person for you. However, I also used to think that you could only love one person at one time. I also never thought that God was someone to be loved, or that He honestly loved us back. I never understood how to show someone love, and never really knew if someone loved me back. Of course, as I grew up I understood that love can and should be shared with everyone that is important to you. But I still never understood love. I could not grasp what love meant, I just knew it was something important. And then recently, I found it.

 "Love is patient. Love is kind. Love does not envy. Love does not boast. Love is not proud. Love is not rude. Love is not easily angered. Love keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." - 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

This, to me, is the perfect definition of love. If I cannot do everything that this "checklist" is saying, then do I really love the person? No, I don't believe so. This verse is what love is, and is the only way to show someone how much you really love them. This is also the time I found that God truly loves us back. God is everything that it says.

For the longest time, I bought in to the hollywood definition of love. That people fall in love immediately, usually based on looks. And that you always know the difference between love and lust. That love completely changes a person. That love should completely change a person. But really, this is not love at all. It's an idealistic view of love, but it simply isn't true. Love is much more complex than one simple feeling of elation.

I hope that this has somehow made you think about love, and help you think about the way that love is. Maybe this has even opened your eyes a little bit. I cannot count too much on this, however, seeing as though I haven't completely opened my eyes up yet. But I am confident that everyone gets there eventually.